I have hoped that the generation "curse" would stop at me.
I wanted to be the change agent, I wanted to be the person who is better.
But I have been failing. Infact, I think I am even worse than both of them.
There is just so much anger. My mom with my grandmother, Me with my mom and even my grandmother.
I have to admit, I am angry at my mom. No matter how much I love her, I have no gentle way to expresss. I am angry on the outside. I only know how to show anger to express my love. The exact same way that my mom treats me.
Why am I falling into the same spiral? The exact thing that I hated all my life, I am doing exactly the same thing, it is almost like my revenge back to her.
But I know that I want to change. I pray for the strength and the will to follow-thru.
Let me find the compassion to treat my mom and grandma with softness and not anger.
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