I have a lot to make up for.....

I don't like to look back.

I can only look forward.

I choose not to feel the guilt. It is not about feeling guilty. Only tears will flow when I focus on guilt.

I know I want to make up. I want to make up to him for the 2 years that we did not have.

That will be my focus. I must remember this when we are together again. Another 2 months to go. I really can't wait. This should have happened 2 years ago.

But no point looking back, I can only look forward and make it up!

Of closet, dust, bugs and fried anchovies??

I packed 2 large suitcases.

Normally, I would be very excited to open up my suitcases when I arrived at the destination.

Somehow, this time, I relaxed first, talked a bit and did not even bother to open the suitcase yet.

Hmmm...that's so not me. I should unpack now.

I went to my closet.

Wow! it was dusty!

There were even bugs amongst the folded clothes.

And right in front of me was 2 pcs of fried anchovies!!!!!

When I woke up, this is what I understood of my dream.

I have been away too long. Even my closet is sending me signals that it has been tooooo Loooong.

I will be back soon. Hang in there!