I have a lot to make up for.....

I don't like to look back.

I can only look forward.

I choose not to feel the guilt. It is not about feeling guilty. Only tears will flow when I focus on guilt.

I know I want to make up. I want to make up to him for the 2 years that we did not have.

That will be my focus. I must remember this when we are together again. Another 2 months to go. I really can't wait. This should have happened 2 years ago.

But no point looking back, I can only look forward and make it up!