A "Korean Drama" Dream

How often is that your dream turns out like a Korean Drama plot? It was amazing with triangle loves, with pain, and at last with true love.

Note - "All characters are fictional and not reflective of reality" It is after all a dream.

The scene - It was a dinner. A gathering of friends. It seems like frequent weekly gathering whereby this groups friends gather. I was with Marky. We are together and probably have been together for sometime. Something is a miss, not to the eyes of others but I could feel it. I was in love with him. He loves me too but somehow I am feeling insecure.

SLing walked in with some other friends. Unknown to me and others, Marky and SLing seemed to have a past together. A love that never happened, love that is not meant to be. The question in their heads is that could it be, could we be? So, there is always a tension in the room when they meet.

I guess that manifested in my insecurity about my relationship with Marky.

Everyone was at dinner and chatting. But everyone seemed to have something else to rush to. Marky and I have another function to attend. SLing need to go home to her husband - YES, she is married! Drama right?!!

Everyone decide to take their leave. Marky and I left through the front door first. Marky opened the door and walked out. I walked out after him. I decided to go back and lock up the door as I know everyone was going out through the back door and I didn't feel right leaving the door unlocked.

After I locked the door, I saw that Mark has walked ahead. I tried to rush forward but I am not sure which way he went. I turned right, walked down a lane.

I got lost. I can't find him. It was getting dark. I am getting scared. Marky - please find me.

I walked through some really scary area and I was feeling desperate.

I came upon a row of stores. I was going to go in to get some help, to call Marky.

Suddenly I saw SLing and some of our friends walking by. They were surprised to see me there as Marky and I left earlier than them. I told them I got separated from Marky and can't find him.

As suddenly as I said that, Marky appeared, all sweat out, desperation on his face. He was searching high and low for me.

I brust into tears and flew into his arms. I held him tight. When I saw his face, all my insecurities gone. I know now that he loves me deeply. There should be no doubt.

We got into his car. I am still holding him tight, tears streaming down my face. Love found, renewed, reconfirmed without a doubt.

Wow!! What a way to end the dream. I love happy endings.

Don't take an afternoon nap

Taking a nap in the afternoon is never a good idea. You wake up feeling worse than before and that is not a nice feeling. Lethargic, blur and in extreme bad mood.

Worst if you had an equally bad dream while sleeping.

I was back in my old house. The place I grew up.

It was in the afternoon, I decided to go for a ride in my bicycle. I was meeting my "boyfriend" (who really is my husband) somewhere nearby.

I took a lot of things with me. Wallet, wristlet, water bottle, iphone, papers, a pack of dried shrimp!!!??, some plastic bags, food etc.

Even though the bicycle didn't have any basket to put things, I believed that I could hold everything in place.

I started riding. Everything was ok when I first go out of the house. I rode down a small lane.

Oh no!! The bicycle feels funny. My leg kept getting stuck at the pedal and the handle feels like it is coming off. But I was going down the lane and there was momentum, I managed to reach down but one of the handle came off.

I went down another back lane. This time worse, the bike really feels out of control, like it was going to come apart.

Some of stuff dropped out of the bicycle. But I can't stop as it was going down the lane. I reached the bottom and realized I can't make it. I better go back as this bicycle is falling apart.

I rode the bicycle up the lane. But I could not get far as I didn't have the strength to ride it up the lane. I stopped. All my things fell off the bike.

OMG!! I started to pick everything up. Oh!! Why did I bring so many things. It was so difficult to pick them and I Can't find my iphone, I am so disturbed. But I needed to concentrate to pick everything up, I put some in a plastic bag but damn there is a hole and everything fell out again.

Then I saw a big pack of dried shrimps. I picked it up. It looked so good and fresh. But hey, why is the pack so big. It doesn't look like mine. It is not mine. The klepto side of me was so tempted to take it. But I managed to stop myself.

There is another pack of dried shrimps. What is this??!! Temptations?? It is not mine. Some people have put them out to dry. If I took it, I am very sure no-one would know. Ohhhhh!! So tempted to take it. But I didn't. I was strong. Must fight back to my klepto side.

I continue to pick up my own things, still have not found my iphone, still struggling to pick up my things, very worried and very disturbed.

Enough is enough. I don't need this bad dream. I make myself wake up from my afternoon nap. Heavy breathing, eyes can hardly open, really hot chest, really feeling lethargic - this sucks!!

I am going to take a shower and snap out of this.

No more afternoon naps!

Sci-Fi Movie Dream

It is difficult to describe a very exciting dream. It was like a sci-fi movie. I will attempt to describe.

Imagine Star Wars. That's the scene. 3 good fellas (1 girl - obviously me in the lead cast and 2 other guys) and 1 mean bad guy (the villain).

3 of us had to get into the villian's planet to steal a disk from his office. A disk containing all information of the universe. So me and another guy diguise as a couple from a faraway planet who came to the villiant planet for a visit. We landed in a space ship (shaped like a typewriter). Anyway, we went into the office to greet the villain. While talking to him, we were actually distracting him while the other guy steal the disk from his office.

Mission successful.....errr but not so fast. The villain said that my husband looked familiar. He wants to check up his biodata on his computer. He asked some of his staff in and told them that my husband looked like this popular movie star from planet ZZZ. They were laughing and asked me to go over so that he can show me the news that they were going to pull from the computer.

Oh no!! They are going to discover their data is gone!!!!! Error!! They tried again to access their computer...Error!! I had to act fast. I said - Just tell me what and who he is.

It worked, it distracted them and they told me that my husband is actually a casanova from planet ZZZ and have slept with many women. They were all laughing.

This was our chance to escape. I slapped my husband. Pretending to be really angry at him since now I discovered that piece of news about him. We pretended to be fighting and hitting each other while moving out of the office to get to our space shuttle.

We are there, we are ready to board the space shuttle.

Suddenly out of nowhere, this fat guy appeared. He is a staff of the villain. He said, he heard that we came from planet ZZZ, he is from planet ZZZ and he wanted to say hi. He went on to do some weird greetings and hand gestures from planet ZZZ.

Our cover is blown. We don't know the hand gestures. We had to get out. This fat guy knew immediately we are not from planet ZZZ.

A siren came on. The guards rushed in with the guns. We got into our space shuttle. We are preparing to launch. The guards arrive. They all take aim at our space shuttle as we launch up.

The screen froze. I woke up. Wow!! Talk about an exciting dream!!

Double Risk

2nd night in a row, a vivid memory of a word appeared from my dream. It was Belittling yesterday and today it is Double Risk!

When I woke up I could remember clearly what happening in my dreams. After a few hours the memories fade but the context of the dream remained.

I remember it was a conversation with an collegue, Pris. I don't see her very often as she is always travelling and about. She so happened to be in the office that day and was very excited that we could catch up. We sat down and I told her my situation that I am quitting my job. She was surprised, concerned and said this. If you quit, wouldn't it be double risk if you husband don't have a job?

Double Risk? Double Risk? What exactly does this mean?

Belittling

Imagine I woke up from my dream with the word BELITTLING clearly spelled out in my mind. It was weird almost like a message to me. Or maybe I am just stressed in my sleep.

Whatever it is, I have been having loads of dreams everynite and each time with different adventures and usually I wake up with vivid memories of what transpired. But I don't write them now immediately and as such the memories fades and I can't remember much after.

But this dream had a word that rang out. Belittling.

I can't remember much, I can't remember where and what was happening around. I remember it was a conversation with my aunt.

Aunt said - I know you are not working and spending time at home. Don't you think it is BELITTLING to women kind that you choose to stay home?


I was really upset but I held it inside. I composed myself. I held myself together and very rationally I try to make her see how ridiculous she sounds. BELITTLING to women because I choose not to work, how absurd does that sound.!!!????


The word Belittling woke me up. What is this message? Is it belittling now that I am not at work? Sigh.

Why are people so inconsiderate?

May 2009



My hubby and I decided to treat ourself to getaway in a beautiful luxurious hotel.

It was a beautiful hotel, newly furnished and the room we had was fit for the Queen and King.

Just as we entered our room, just outside there was a huge spread of food. It came as part of our room package. For both of us only.

Auds and her friends were there too...they were waiting for their food at another table. When they saw our spread of food, they came over and started eating.

I told them, this food is not for them. It is only for my room. They all ignored us and continued eating.

I was pissed, how can people be so incosiderate? Not only they are eating food that is not theirs, they did not stop to ask if they can eat.



Pissed me off even in my dreams.

"Fake" Men

He was a good friend. Good guy, very attentive and nice to women. He is the type of guy that women can fall easily in love with. Smooth-talker, funny, smart, good-looking, socialize well, attentive (the type that protects women when you are with him), a good friend, overall a guy whom a girl will feel really lucky to have as her man. No faults, almost perfect.

Many moons ago when I first got to know him, I didn't see any faults, we became fast friends and I actually considered. But then just as I considered, it was like a big curtain was opened in my eyes. He was all the positives of the above, but then I saw something else. So small that nobody would notice. So small that even if I told others, they won't see it or believe me either.

But when I saw this little small fault, it never left me. He is a "little fake".

And I say a "little" cos in general, you won't be able to see it. In general, he is still a nice guy. In general he is still all that he is and all that he shows himself to be - all the positives. But I saw that he is not all that genuine, some of his actions so subtly but I saw is all not that real. Almost like a pretense but then he is not really pretending. It is difficult to describe. But it is like, he is this really nice guy and he is and he does do all the nice things but then once in a while he slips, you see that he is not 100% genuine. It is like a show he shows but a show that he has perfected that he almost became perfect but in actuality deep down he is not perfect.

Then again, is he all the positives above, yes he is. Is he a good friend, yes he is. Is he like a perfect husband/bf, yes he is. But I could not get over the little glimpse of "fakeness" I saw. It was almost I saw him for who he really is. I am still his friend but we are no longer close. But I have not become cold, there was no reason too. I became like him "fake" when I am with him. I am still like nice and close to him, we joke, we show concern, we are great friends but I am a "little fake", not 100% genuine. So, to avoid my own fakeness, I distance myself as necessary and naturally from him. I don't want to be a fake even if it is 1%.


He married the nicest girl. The girl worships the ground he walks on. She has been in love with him like forever. Together, they are like match made in heaven. Perfect life, Perfect couple.

Then I found out he slept around. Or well, I heard he slept with a collegue. This apparently happened a year ago. I wasn't around at that time. When I heard this from a source, I was in a dilemma.

He is a friend, his wife is a friend infact became a close girlfriend ie. we hang out and the girl he slept with is also a friend. Wow!! What am I to do?

Should I say something to him? He is after all, my friend first but then we are not that close anymore.

Should I say something to his wife? As a girlfriend to her, I should, but then this happened sometime back, I just heard about it now and it is from a third party. What if it is not true?

Should I say something to the girl he "apparently" slept with? I know her, we are friends but who am I to say anything to her??

So I confided with a girlfriend who also know all 3 of them. She hated me for it :) cos now she also has to carry the burden. At least there are 2 of us now. Anyway, we decided that we will not say anything.

Primary reason - we did not see it with our own eyes, what if not true, why plant a seed of betrayal if we don't even know for sure there was and whatmore this happened one year ago.

I hope we made the right decision.

This story came up again for me, sparked up by a dream I had yesterday.

He AS did it again. Apparently, he slept with many girls. We were all at a party. I was in a bad mood and wanted to leave. I started to walk out the door. I saw his wife DE in the crowd. She stopped me and said she wanted to talk. But I was in a hurry to go. I asked her can it wait? She said ok. But she looked sad. As I walked away, I felt bad. Did I do the right thing? Should I just stay and talk to her? I looked back at her, she was already talking with 2 other people. I hurried on. SP stopped me. She asked if she can walk with me and go where I was going. I said fine. We took the car and sped off.

SP wanted to talk to me. We stopped at a coffee stall. She told me that DE found out that AS has been sleeping around. She found hundreds of text messages on his phone from MAS air stewardess. DE is very sad. We need a plan.

I woke up. A dream based on reality.

I want my job back

August 2010

I was back and wanted to go back to work.

I dressed up got into the car and drove to office

I arrived just in time 9am that's good. I can take my time to go in cos that's usually early for the office folks anyway.

Then I saw LeeLee hurry into the office.

Oh wow! What a change? I sensed the change in attitute. People from office now have a strong sense of discipline.

Ok that's it! I gotta hurry and show some urgency too. I should get in by 9am to get into my boss good books.

I walked in and there was this flight of stairs. Things looked different. Things have changed.

As I was walking up the stairs, I came to a step that was too high for most people to step up. Hmmm this is ridiculous. How do people get into the office?

Luckily there was an door opening to the left. I walked in.

The office looked full, everyone busy at their work.

Collegues greeted me happily.

I happily walked around talking to everyone.

As I wanted to sit down to start work, I had a realization!!

I resigned.

I don't have a job anymore.

I resigned! I was not on leave.

I really resigned.

Oh no! Can I get my job back?

Will my boss let me come back?

I have to find him!

I went around the office. He is not at his place. Even his secretary is not around.
Oh my! What do I do?

I woke up. I did resigned. I have no job. Blissfully happy. Should I get a job?

Jennifer Aniston with 4 nipples

Ok...it was a really weird dream. There she was, Jennifer Aniston, one of my favourite actress and no doubt one of the beauties of Hollywood.

It was kinda a weird place. Everyone was naked. Almost like a orgy place.

Jennifer Aniston was just there, naked.

I sat beside her.

She was talking to me. Almost like we were friends.

I noticed something weird.

Her right breast had 2 nipples.

She noticed my stare and then showed me that she had another nipple in the middle of her cleavage.

Ok...kinda scary.

But what's next is even scarier. I think I leaned forward and kiss her left breast!!!

Oh gosh...I am so glad I woke up!

Even his thigh is enough?

We are together.

Happy. Just the two of us.

Even though there are other people around, but it feels like there are only the two of us.

We sat down on our home sofa. I was just holding on to his thigh.

And at that moment I felt, it is enough...if I can do this now, it is enough.

This was a dream I had 3 months ago when we were apart. I missed him, that's all I can say. To touch him again, feel him near me, it would be priceless.

And now, being together, I have to remember that even his thigh is enough.

Of closet, dust, bugs and fried anchovies??

I packed 2 large suitcases.

Normally, I would be very excited to open up my suitcases when I arrived at the destination.

Somehow, this time, I relaxed first, talked a bit and did not even bother to open the suitcase yet.

Hmmm...that's so not me. I should unpack now.

I went to my closet.

Wow! it was dusty!

There were even bugs amongst the folded clothes.

And right in front of me was 2 pcs of fried anchovies!!!!!

When I woke up, this is what I understood of my dream.

I have been away too long. Even my closet is sending me signals that it has been tooooo Loooong.

I will be back soon. Hang in there!

No sex again

It was early morning.
He is beside me.
Really? Can't that be true?
Ok maybe we should get some "action".

But then he got up. He went outside the room.
I followed.
But it's still early. There is still time for some "action".

I went back to bed.
I waited.
But he did not come back into the room.
Sigh.

No chance! No sex even in my dreams

USA or home?

I made the unexpected trip to USA. I miss him. Also all my stuff, my abandoned stuff, my life is all here in USA.


And there and then I decided, THIS IS IT! No more long distance! I will go back home but then in March I will be back to USA again for good!


Then I looked around the house, the curtains all look out of order. Most are not big enough to cover the windows. My neighbours could actually see inside.


Infact, as I was undressing, there was a peeping neighbour who happened to look in at me with no shame.


"Oh Shit!" Why didn't I bring new curtains from Malaysia this trip? Cos I don't think I can carry curtains in March as I would have more things to bring to USA!! Aiya!!"


With that last thought - I woke up!

I wanted to tell my hubby the dream. I called up and ended having a argument on what more he can do in our current situation. I am frustrated that there is no progress, no answer to our situation.

Snake in your dreams - You want SEX!

Did you know that if you dreamt of a snake, this means that you are in need of sex?

I did not know that. I had a scary snake dream. Woke up and told my hubby. He said he dreamt of a snake too.

Had tea with a girlfriend and told her about my scary snake dream.

The first thing she said "You should not tell people if you dreamt of snakes"!

I was like " Oh No! Don't tell me, some bad omen stuff right! Something bad is gonna happen to me!!! Oh No! Oh No!

She went " Oh! Don't worry! It just means you want sex! So better not tell people that right!! :)

I went "Oh really! My hubby dreamt of snakes too. Fantastic, we both want SEX!"

I missed the bus

Waiting for bus at the bus stop.

The bus was no where in sight.
Got a bit restless, can’t just sit around and wait.
Went into a chocolate store, bought 2 chocolate. Girl at shop was wrapping the box

Bus came.

Nickie and Izzie went up the bus

"Hey girl! Wrap it faster, I got to get up the bus."
I came out just as the bus is driving off.

Nickie and Izzie were on the bus - "just ask the bus to stop"

Both of them were sitting at the back. Their action seemed slow.

Nickie stood up to ring the bell, so that the bus will stop at the next stop I guess.
I was running after the bus. It stopped, I was huffing and puffing.

The strong arms of Nickie grabbed me up the bus.

I guess the separation is really getting to me...

I have not seen my hubby for 3 months....This is the manifestation of us being apart as depicted in my dream. It was really a dream.

I was on a business trip with my collegues to Japan. We were in bus station. We were supposed to take a bus into an outskirt area in Japan.

My hubby was supposed to meet me in Japan. As I arrived at the bus station, I looked arounded the crowded place for him. He was no where in sight.

I was getting a little anxious. The bus arrived and my collegues started going up.

" Where is hubby?"

Then someone familiar walked down from the bus. Ohhh! It's Ahkito. Not my hubby :) We had a good time in Europe when we were there for work. I have not seen him for some time!

But my attention quickly swing back looking for my hubby. Who cares about Ahkito?!! I am looking for my hubby.

Then he appeared. My hubby! We hugged. I miss him so. And he felt like he has lost some weight.

I asked him to come with me on the bus. At first he refused, he said he will wait for me to come back from the work place. I told him this place is quite remote and far away and I may not come back by evening. He agreed to come with me.

We got up the bus. It was a magical journey.

First we saw the sky as it we were in space. It was a magical blue in colourful and we could see Earth as if it was the biggest moon right in front of us.

The we passed a building, it looked like a condominium, all white in colour. The bus was on a higher ground so we could see into the different floors of the condo. And each floor we could see the tenants playing with polar bears. It was like a polar bear celebration. Every floor, every family had either 1 or 2 polar bears.

We passed the condo and came to some colourful buildings. It was up a pebbled road, the building looked like they were out of a paintings.

Then we arrived at our destination. It looked like the magical world of Disney, with castles and colorful people. The bus stopped.

My hubby got down quickly and left me to take all the luggages. I was a little pissed that he got down so fast. I pushed my way out as people already started coming up the bus.

As I got down the bus, the bus sped off.

I looked around for my hubby. He was nowhere in sight. I called his name. He did not answer. I called again, no answer, I could not find him. Was he still on the bus? Oh no!

I ran after the bus. I called his name. I ran. I called his name. I kept running, shouting his name. I kept shouting his name.......

I woke up.

I slept with my bf's best friend and he is gay

My bf and I were refraining from sex, something that we agreed upon for our relationship.

We went to India or it looked like kinda a war torn Islamic country like what we usually see in the news - men carrying guns everywhere.

My bf went to work.

I was with my bf's best friend walking the streets. It was dangerous. He kept me safe.

We went back to the hotel. Someone tried to assasinate him but failed. It was a close call for both of us.

It happened. We did it, we had sex. Even though he is my bf's best friend and he is gay.


Wow! My dreams are getting more weird!

I am the second wife.

My Husband has another wife. Infact, I am the the second wife.

The three of us seemed really happy with the arrangement. One man, 2 wife...a happy family?

Then something happened, I went for a holiday and when I came back, things just were not the same. I've changed.

The three of us were watching TV on the bed. My hubby in the middle. The other woman on one side and me on another side. She had her leg on my hubby and hugging his body.

My hubby was holding my hands on my side.

Suddenly, I felt sad, Why am I in here? Why am I in this relationship? I need to leave, I need to run! I started crying.



Phew...it was just a dream.

Calculator and Shit...

Seriously, either I am sleeping too much or I am freaking bored.

It shows in my dreams.

Ok I was feeling kinda constipated. But yet my stomach is feeling bloated and uncomfortable. Not forgetting the explosive farts..or the silent killer farts that even I have to spare my nose of its misery.......

Anyway, here is what I dreamt :-

There were 3 of us. I can't remember who they are now but definitely my friends and me. I think we have been constipated for a few days now and we are kinda in agony. The shit wants to come out but it can't cos it stuck. The most bizzare thing is that, our a**holes are stuck...literally. So we have to slowly, push it out. (sorry that it is getting yucky...bear with me).

So there we were...probably in a clinic sitting next to each other and each pushing our shit out. You won't believe why our butt-holes are stuck. It is stuck with a calculator!!!!!!! So we have to slowly push the calculator out first to clear the channel..... for the shit!!

Dreams.....what can I say? There is nothing to say.

Sorry for slow entries for the past 2 month....The blog engine in me kinda stalled for a while. Went for a vacation :) but hopefully am back with full force.

Dreams - a play coming out of a piano

All I can remember is that I was playing the piano. It was an upright piano and as the music plays, there was a whole musical unfolding at the top of the piano.

It was really beautiful...with people singing, dancing and beautiful music.